Dear pain,
I am here to thank you for breaking that comfortable shell around me which kept me from the world.
You taught me to be happy. Ironical right? But I never knew how strong I was until you arrived. Like happiness, you are a part of my life which cannot be ignored. Even though I tried to ignore you, you gave me the bitter taste of reality. I cried. I resented you. I begged you to leave. I became silent. That’s when I realized, you are inevitable. Instead of being destroyed by you, I should be brave enough to explore the darkness you hold. But numbing you was not the solution. I couldn’t trust time as it would only teach me how to live with you silently. So I decided to make you happy. I decided to take your pain away. I decided to fill your darkness with sunshine. Do you know what I discovered in that imaginary void? The real memories of you making people happy while having a big smile on your face. It cheered me up and encouraged me to define myself through you.
Thank you for making me stronger with every passing day. The journey of the weaker me enduring you to the stronger me embracing you has been bitter yet wonderful.
(Although I don’t want to be, still)
Your priority,
Anshika 🙂